My personal picks! My favorite artists of all time!
(L-R) Bruno Mars, Jason Mraz, Katy Perry, Michael Bublè, Joe Brooks
There are some things that neither my heart nor mind can contain. Or it has just gone overdue to how much I can really keep for myself. I’m like a cup filled more than what I can hold.
There are thoughts bothering me since summer began, they’re quite a lot so that is mainly the reason why I have the urge to write about it. They are quite random stuffs that keeps me thinking almost all the time. But I guess I have to keep the anonymity so I won’t hurt anyone’s feelings.
Time heals. Yes! That thought I held since the last time we talked about it made me heal through time. Maybe because I was just real about what am I to her, a brother. I held on to that, did not go beyond it, accepted the fact that we can never be lovers, and got used to it. Now, I am not awkward whenever I am with her and we are as disastrous and mischievous as ever! But it was a hard fight I fought alone; a struggle I faced myself. It took me months to get successfully through it. Thanks to feasibility studies, we have grown closer and tighter just like real brothers and sisters.
As I was going through the process, there are some thoughts that made me think, a new possibility; another slapping reality that I have to bear with. A deeper outlook to what will my life would if I were. But it gave me a graver and darker impression because I know it will turn my life 180 degrees. I cannot share them yet, I’m still looking for that one person I could confide with, that person who could be more like a link to my soul. However, I still feel no one suits the criteria I have in mind. I have one in mind actually, but this person is too boisterous; has a very strong personality that masks the inner pains and his/her (to remain anonymous) true identity.
I have to say, this year is a roller coaster of deeper perspectives and dispositions to persons I know. I was lucky enough to have been shared by information regarding who truly my friends are: their personality, the way they carry themselves, the ‘real’ them - if you know what I mean.
They were all shockers, I have to agree. But I never squirmed to who they truly are. I treated it more of as another perspective of their character. An add on rather than a loss; a turn on rather than a disgusting fact I happen to know. Personally, there is nothing really wrong about the choices my friends have for themselves, that’s them. And I support them to where they love to be because in that way, they may be able to find who they truly are, or at least help them discover themselves better and define the inner strengths and weaknesses they have.
How about love, hmm? Did I just find it this time around? Right person, I guess I found you. Just give me the right time, right place, right moment, right manner and right emotions and let’s see where things will fall into. You are a turn on, I have to say! I was never wrong to who you are. ;)
See how random this post is?
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